Not sure what to call this one...needs 2 b finished

she sits all alone
no one is home
sometimes she likes it this way

there's no one to hear
there's no one to care
in silence she cries

empty inside her heart slowly dies
the smiles don't hide her desperate time
she's fading with every beat

love sweet love
come to me
her vital plea
keep me alive
help me to strive
for more than this life i lead

broken apart....

Weekend Lull

So nothing major going on this weekend. Um, basically just a typical rainy weekend. Hung out with a good friend and some other cool people yesterday. Was nice to get out of the house. Um, went to the pet store today to try and get cold medicine for my kitten. Unsuccessful. Decided to come home and print some picture of England symbols. This way it gives me something to aspire to you know? I want to make it so badly over there that seeing those images on my wall will hopefully kick my arse and work real hard. Hopefully my mum comes through with money for an application for school because through the communications, journalism, and english major programs, URI offers a study abroad option that I REALLY wanna do. I'm actually really excited for school. Knowing that it really is all a possibility is very reassuring. I know it's all up to me though. I know I can do it and I know I want this bad enough that I'll do whatever it takes to get to where I want to get to. I'm not quite sure what it is about England, but something about that country is calling me and I'm not going to ignore it.

So aside from that, nothing really major like I said. Oh before I forget, Cheryl Cole performed tonight on The X Factor and she was AMAZING! I'm really feeling her new single. It's called "Fight For This Love." I suggest everyone go to iTunes and download that song because it is just phenomenal. If you have a true passion for pop music, you need to check it out, you won't be disappointed. Also, I can't stress enough, CapitalFM in London is the best radio station I have EVER listened to. Capitalfm.com if you want to check it out. Actually listening as I type and on comes another song. Lady Gaga and Beyonce's collaboration. This song is off the map. Two fantastic superstars making a super fantastic song. When this song hits America, people are just going to go nuts. Definitely the smash hit of 2010 once it takes off.

Anyway, haven't got much to write as I didn't pay much attention to anything this weekend. Cheers all!!!

Where have I been?

Wow so I haven't blogged in a long time. Not that anyone reads haha. I hope to change that soon. I'm gonna do some shameless self promotion on facebook and twitter. Anyway, much has happened since I last posted, though I'm sure my last post was about my mom, so in that respect, nothing has changed. She's still a bitch and I hate her. Just now, I've gotten to the point where I don't care anymore. She can do whatever the fuck she wants. I honestly don't give a shit anymore. I just can't wait to get the hell out of here. 

Anyway, enough of my bitching. I want to talk about Stephen Gately and the article that was written about him in the dailymirror today. The article was written by Jan Moir and although I understand her intentions, she definitely needed to choose her words a lot more wisely. To suggest Stephen's death was unnatural in the way she did definitely painted a homophobic picture.

"But, hang on a minute. Something is terribly wrong with the way this incident has been shaped and spun into nothing more than an unfortunate mishap on a holiday weekend, like a broken teacup in the rented cottage. 

Consider the way it has been largely reported, as if Gately had gently keeled over at the age of 90 in the grounds of the Bide-a-Wee rest home while hoeing the sweet pea patch. 

The sugar coating on this fatality is so saccharine-thick that it obscures whatever bitter truth lies beneath. Healthy and fit 33-year-old men do not just climb into their pyjamas and go to sleep on the sofa, never to wake up again." http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1220756/A-strange-lonely-troubling-death--.html

I understand her intentions. I honestly do. I can't stress that enough. After all, a fit 33-year old man does not just die without there being some sort of foul play unless he had an underlying medical condition. Take a look at Michael Jackson. We all know how fit he was, we've seen the way he dances. So of course there's no way he can just up and die the way he did. Everybody immediately suspected something wasn't right. And we were all correct. Michael had a plethora amount of drugs in his system. So, when it comes to Stephen Gately, are we to assume he just went out for a night, had a few drinks, came home, went to bed never to wake again? Definitely not and that's all Jan Moir was really saying.

However, at the other end of the spectrum, the choice of words and structure she used definitely paints an image that all homosexual's indulge in extreme decadent activities that can result to death. Just because he and his civil partner invited a man to their flat doesn't suggest any out-of-the-ordinary happenings. Maybe they fancied the man for his personality and thought he could become a great friend. Maybe they knew he was too drunk to go to his own place and invited the man to theirs because it was closer. No one really knows what happened that night except for Stephen, his partner, and the man, but to assume his death was related to the private events of the night is uncalled for.

The fact of the matter is, Stephen was a brilliant talent, whom I only discovered a few years ago as his success was limited to the UK, who left a mark on those who knew his music and knew him personally and he will be missed.

R.I.P. Stephen Gately

Shitty Economy

As it stand​s,​ the Unite​d State​s and much of the world​ is exper​ienci​ng a neede​d but dread​ed reces​sion.​ Banks​ are closi​ng,​ house​s are being​ seize​d,​ and peopl​e are losin​g their​ jobs.​ times​ are tight​ and final​ly all socia​l class​es are feeli​ng the crunc​h.​ So why then does Holly​wood spend​ an abund​ant amoun​t of money​?​ Bette​r yet, why does Ameri​ca,​ inclu​ding the peopl​e and the Gover​nment​ allow​ it to happe​n?​ As it is with sport​s,​ there​ shoul​d be a salar​y cap. Under​stand​ably it's unrea​listi​c,​ but not as much as one think​s.​ Sure we all want to make money​ and those​ in Holly​wood may not be happy​ but as an outsi​der to that crazy​ world​,​ I'm not happy​ about​ the sacri​fices​ I've had to make.​ What I'm sayin​g is not a stret​ch nor is is a stude​nts attem​pt to gain 15 minut​es.​ What this is, is a sugge​stion​ to help the masse​s.​ Somet​hing that gives​ back to those​ who need the most witho​ut leavi​ng those​ who don'​t under​ the bus.

For start​ers,​ actor​s salar​ies need to be cut. I don'​t care how good or who you are, one does need $20M per movie​.​ There​ is no need for one perso​n to have that much money​,​ espec​ially​ when there​ are starv​ing child​ren livin​g on our stree​ts.​ The produ​ction​ cost for movie​s need to go down as well.​ The only reaso​n costs​ went up is becau​se peopl​e got money​ hungr​y and it was allow​ed.​ Presi​dents​ and CEO'​s of compa​nies jacke​d price​s and as consu​mers we liter​ally bough​t into it. Well now we'​re all payin​g for it. Pun inten​ded.​

Takin​g a stand​ again​st major​ corpo​ratio​ns isn'​t the exact​ solut​ion,​ but it is a neces​sary step in the quant​um physi​cs math probl​em we'​ve found​ ourse​lves in. By refus​ing to pay ridic​ulous​ price​s for certa​in items​,​ we will force​ compa​nies to make a decis​ion.​ Somet​imes that decis​ion may hurt some worke​rs,​ but if we focus​ our atten​tion on those​ busin​esses​ who emplo​y overs​eas,​ we can begin​ to work on Ameri​ca.​ For that is the true chall​enge.​ We must help ourse​lves befor​e we can help other​s.​